Sunday, February 29, 2004
Went to fix my anciently sprained foot today at some chinese doctor guy who happened to be my mother's old old friend's husband...like, i practically grew up with their kids, or at least one of them...anyway..it was like a mini reunion thingie.
oh it was pretty cool....cos the chinese doctor guy also does like, palm reading and stuff. and he stared hard at mine and told me i would accomplish 3 major things in life..or rather..i have 3 main plans for my life or someting like that..which i thought was pretty cool cos *refer to previous entry* haha yay! anyway.,.feedback pple...i cant qute visualize myself..or anyone for that matter..simultaneous doctor-ing and snapping national geographic type pictures. yes JAM!! i know you like the first one but you know the THING i have for the 2nd one, which you apparently hate :( And i want to get out f here for a while to...like, study something funky and interesting overseas.
A level's out next friday too, in case anyone forgets. OH MAN I AM SO GLAD the govt finally decided to scrap the whole chinese thingie. Now there's no way my school's gonna force mte to continue wasting my life in chinese class, not that i go all that often anyway, but still...this is such a genius decision. PAP and all associated, i truly love you all! jamie..this was apparently supposed to prevent quitter mushrooms from gng overseas to study cos they can't do mother tongue *rolls eyes*
essays beckon! cya later...
i was, and wish i still was
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love my blog now! i have a tag board wheee! works better than that ugly guestbook that didnt last a second look...apologies to those few who did sign it...and i like my moodswingly little faces :)
received terrifying news on friday that march CTs begin, like, way soon. how utterly depressing. Like, i've hardly done anything and now... this??!! Just want to get it over and done with. and then (oh joy!) I'll have the JUNE papers to look forward to.
"learn to write your hurts in sand, and your happiness in stone"
whoa thanks kaiting *wave wave* im teaching her how to fix the templates in HER blog! Like, where was i two weeks ago? *smugness*
anyway..was talking to my parents about THE FUTURE (yes, see the capitals..) and i sorta came up with 3 feasible possibilities...
1) Economics and journalism and then join a newsdesk..hopefully get to national
geographic someday ;)
2) Medicine, do some normal doctory work for a few years and then off to
africa/vienam/laos/wherever and do humanitarian work..This one's my longest lasting
one thus far, and the most ideal. unfortunately its also the least feasible.
3) Environmental biology or some form of genetics..and then stay in that and just do
research...probably mix uppable with the 2nd one actually.
haha i'm hopeless..these are so not real life situation things to do...but i know i would just die if i had an ordinary desk job. Gosh theres so many other billion things i wanna do! ok i'll go make a list and type it in the next time.
what i really really want now is an incubus cd! oh gosh i replayed Drive ten zillion times today. Im like, hooked on their guitars...*drools* and i can't wait to watch big fish. hmm should start a list of favourite movies too.
Going to stick needles in my feet tmr...err...today..the sprain went nutty. and i'm dead sleepy now.
life is beautiful people...love you all
"Whatever tomorrow brings I'll be there
with open arms and open eyes..."
Drive
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Saturday, February 28, 2004
Morpheus
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today was a great day technically..mardi gras was superbly fun…was great!! kept seeing all thesold OLD long lost friends and all. and me and hafi and joyce got so high dressing up and being vain at my house before mardi gras…we were all wearing funky skirts from bugis street..haha…man i love that place!! everyone shd go there!! wait, on second thoughts..DON’T go. leave it nice and empty for me. Got really fab butterfly danglies from sara..the sort i want but would never get for myself…the sch was so cool today…really think they should hold this sort of spontaneous, all out events more often..yeah, it felt really good to be there today.
the point being, today was basically a fantastic day. so why do i feel so awful and strange?
Its like, i feel like im losing grip on..something. i don’t know what. But it sure as hell feels lousy. why why why??? it’s the same old stupid thing, i bet..but i shd be getting over it by now. and im NOT!!! wad is wrong with me? why am i such a fucking emotional person? why can’t i just learn to let go?
oh hell…*tries to convince self that there was nothing much happening to begin with* it’s called living life as a dream that is not – and will probably never be- real. But fantasies..well..they insulate against reality. And that is what i want to escape..the reality of..well….losing something that might have been…but it never did come to be. so here i am.
for the uninformed majority..this is not supposed to make any sense at all to you..so my apologies.
Sway by bic runga..sums up my frame of mind perfectly. Wspecialy the first verse. hands up anyone who knows how that feels.
Don't stray, don't ever go away
I know i'm much too smart for this
You know it gets the better of me
Sometimes when you and I collide, I fall into an ocean of you
Pull me out in time
Don't let me drown...Let me down
I say it's all because of you
And here I go, losing my control
Im practising your name so I can say it to your face
It doesnt seem right to look you in the eye
Let all the things you mean to me
Come tumbling out my mouth indeed it's time
To tell you why
I say its ALL BECAUSE OF YOU...
NEeds to get away from it all...therefore i'm...
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Wednesday, February 25, 2004
Im so behind!!! i neglected to mentiopn the cookies!!
Which were'nt technically cookies at all, by definition, but were edible and chocolatey and therefore are in the same class of foods (ie, COMFORT) as cookies, brownies, and etc. Me and gil and nic had this grand plan to make cookies and we met to buy stuff and all when we realized WE HAD NO RECIPE!! so *mad rush, panic scramble* we brilliantly just grabbed cokbooks off the shelves of Popular and snuck into a corner to copy down stuff. The most remoted, empty place in the Simei popular is like,the chinese section..which is somewhere I would never have stepped into otherwise *grin* and so we had...peanut coated rice crispy rochers, and sth with cornflakes, almonds and chocolate. basically they were the sort that you melt down chocolate, throw ina bunch of stuff and freeze..you get the idea
we had this whole lot of extra chocolate after that..with which we made chocolate covered maraschino cherries (nice...) debated making chocolate covered olives (decided against it) and finally just froze in little pie shaped things (they look good but i didnt get to bring any home) ao there. recipes available at eastpoint simei! and theres this ultra cheap, everything available baking shop in some corner of that area.
today's...TUESDAY...whoa...my week has thus far been nusy,a dn as far as i can foresee, will continue being busy..i dunno...im like so not in the mod to do any work most of the time..it's like, im so bloody disorganized to begin with..by the time i actually TTRY to start doing sth, i take like, 20 minutes to find paper, or the book or whatever, then i'll start blogging or sth..and i never actually get down to doing stuff. and that's like lousy..esp since i have so many extra things to do. WAD IS WRONG WITH ME?? DAmn, i was high like, 2 minutes ago and now im like plunging into depressed about sch mode. sigh. sometimes i just feeli like retaining myself in yr one or sth...i dunno, i just feel like i, wasting my time doing all these things which are ultimately of like, zero use. LIke maths. hello, i hate maths, but its like the nunber one essential thing that i have to do. Wad is the point of makng c maths compulsory when there are so many pple who cant even do it cos they skipped a maths in jc? Bloody school system.
*psychos self* i am ok with school....i am ok with school...i hate having to deal with all these expectations..my own included..like, i dunno why pple expect..no, wait, ASSUME that i can do all these stuff. because im not even sure myself..and now that im like much into things already its gonna be extra depressing if i have to give up. arrrghhh sometimes i feel like im just messing up my life
Then again sometimes everything just goes clear and i feel like anything is possible.
Is it?
Oh happy birthday andrew...2 decades and 37 minutes...hello chit..18 years 1 day and 37 minutes....
got a new skin from blogskins...my perfectly ideal one still wont work. sigh.
Love you all...
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Sunday, February 22, 2004
yesterday was insane..did so much all at once and when i got home i zonked out IMMEDIATELY, at like, 10 at night..and that's really really early for me. I'm the sort who never sleeps before 1 on school nights
Road run in the morning! woohoo..it wasn't as bad as i thought it would be, honestly,though i thought i would like, die or something somewhere along the 3.2 km. Halfway through the run my ankle (sprained it last week when i fell down the stairs) gave this vreak and it sort of twisted to the side..the way a freshly sprained body part feels, if you know what i mean...and i was like, oWWWWW..and i sort of limped-ran for some time. lucky for me i had finished runing all the slopey bits and was on the pretty straightforward part of the route. So there i was, in agony and being overtaken by everyone, wondering if i would get back to school at all..when suddenly the ankle gave this loud SNAP CRACK kinda sound, and it sorta twisted back in place. OUch and double ouch, but i could run again. Really should go see a doctor or something but damn i so cannot be bothered...
Delta has this idiotically funny house cheer.."delta..delta..and all the way we go...etc" and we have to do this china ish, marching, hand pumping thing...ok, this is irrelevant, but funny.
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Friday, February 20, 2004
" NO INCOME CAUSES MISERY! "
can't get that line out of my head.. that came straight from econs lecture on unemployment..we had this super passionate lecturer who told us that unemployment caused everything from stress, unhappiness pain...stress related diseases like heart failure, headaches, this causes higher medical bills, high crime rates, looting, god knows what...basically..the unemployments the root of all..and i really mean ALL...evil.
Slacky day slacky day..was pretty high. was a nice day overall...no PE, that's one good thing...and chem prac wasn't nearly as torturous as it usually is, though wad with me breaking a test tube and falling over my bag i suppose i was, as ALWAYS, 'the death of wai san'.
wong wai san's my CT. She's from cambridge (caYmbridge, not cAmbridge, and if you say it wrong she pretends not to know what you're talking about), is ultra pale, prim and proper. one of the most frequently and universally uttered phrases in the class is "waisan hates me!" and she honestly does give out a freezy sorta feeling.
One of my (borrowed on a long term basis) simcards totally died on me...it does about everything except send or receive msgs, and since i'm using that card solely on the basis of its 700 free monthly, well...thats a truly sad fate. have a new one though *hey nice person! wave wave* that has like, 1000 free every month? not like i have that many pple to msg...will probably get passed around like all the others. :) *loves sharing*
Pigged out at swensons today! had a tall glass of something with pistachio nuts and caramel and banana that used to be called a trinity snowdome but i can't remember its name now. ......did someone say diet? hello? huh?
Honestly..today was good. its like, i was back to being my usual un-weird, un-mopey self...its like, im getting over the whole damn thing..which i will not refer to right now cos i don't wanna think about it..hell, its FANTASTIC that i've actually managed to get it out of my system for so long.
i don't know how much i should try to remember. remembering hurts, but something's..i dunno..you just wanna keep hanging sometimes. DAMN how did i get onto this subject? *out, lynnette...OUT*
Leaving you with this really beatiful poem...i keep copies of it everywhere. yep im such a die hard romantic
Beyond a certain point,
Numbers numb, and mean little
or nothing
What is a trillion light years
or a billion grains of sand
What is ten thousand revolutions
per second, or a hundred
thousand eggs in one minute?
I know that minutes never pause
at sixty, without becmng an hour
and that we spend our lives
in days, though we prefer to
remember them as moments
And if i had a second left,
or a million too few
I know I would live it
in one instant
if only...........with you
Daren Shiau
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Thursday, February 19, 2004
Just thought of something i wanted to post a few days ago but didnt...
I never did mention my valentines day earrings did i?
Right..i bought earrings with a theme: a celebration of valentines :) or rather..the two things one hopes for on vday..anyway..one sides a tiny heart with an arrow shot through..thats LOVE, alright...and there was this other waaay funky one of a couple having sex..yep..two tiny entwined figures..and that, of course, is the other side of love, ie, LUST. wore it to sch..haha, i just thought it was so cool. so much for the earrings.
And then on sunday night the heart one broke into bits, i have no idea how. pretty weird..the sex one stays and the love one's gone. oh the significance.....which one lasts longer? yep! my philosophical earrings
"Love is the search for eternity in the eyes of another"
anyone believe that true love lasts for eternity? *hands up*
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Wednesday, February 18, 2004
hey hey...i've spent ages trying to fix the template so it works here..cos it was originally a diaryland one. and i think its finally working!! *screams shouts jumps up and down cheers*
Its like, a great achievement for someone with zero background in html.
still a few weird links here and there but whew..it looks pretty good:)
Im pretty obsessive..so the blog business got me all hot and bothered the past few days..all those hours spent agonizing over html!!! And its not like i had nothing better to do
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Tuesday, February 17, 2004
*frumbles* just had a crap load of trouble switching my templates and stuff..im almost starting to hate diaryland..ok anyway..just hope its working now...my previous entries have disappeared...will have to do sth abt that too...
wad the hell..i DO HATE DIARYLAND..which is why im now transfering everything here to blogger. damn the nice template had to go though..i really liked it..pray that i find a nice one soon otherwise im stuck with this..uhm...normal, ordinary banal uninteresting one
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Too stuffed up from break so im sitting here blooging instead of pigging out as i would otherwise have done...*cheers!* andrew be proud of me :)
Oh well, me and hafi and sherri DID have a fantastic plan to go running and stuff at break, but apparently the track's outta bounds. For some reason the school's scraping off the red grainy stuff that makes a track a track, and now the whole place just looks weird. There's huge piles of the stuff lying around everywhere.
Which is how i ended up not running and eating instead. *fatness*
my origins spray smells so good! its like, lime, grapefruit and spearmint...its so..happy-fiying. felt like laughing the first time i sniffed it. spray spray...haha..the running was sorta an excuse to bring it to sch and spritz it on, actually. haha.
Strawberries for breakfast..they were so good:) ok, they were the overpriced, valentines day variety, but its like, only once a year that you can get halfway decent, unsour stawberries here..so i figure, why not?
Hours please pass quickly..i have 5 more to go before i can even THINK of heading home...
cheers
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Monday, February 16, 2004
Today is the first day of the rest of my (blog’s) life! i have a sneaky suspicion that i’ll abandon this after about a month (or less) but for now i desperately need to do something to amuse myself
im writing this on valentines-boxing-day (ie, 15th feb, check the date)…so..you know what to expect.
Be Yourself Day in school *yay*sort of i guess, though having to write a GP essay ("All art is useless"?) Do you agree?) PLUS take an econs test PLUS have 4 consecutive periods of chem. NOT what i would prefer to do on what tjc terms Friendship Day. Highlight of the day? Our anonymous dedication to Minghui who would otherwise never receive a dedication in his life...The next song is "Pretty Boy" by m2m going out to Hui Ge cracked us all up man..i hope he never finds out. And may he never meet any girl with the initials LJX ever in his life
Anyway...Al Dente Trattoria (at least i think that's how you spell it) is like, the nicest place in the world. Its like, *drool* great food, great ambience..FANTASTIC DRINKS..the thing i got was a huge glass of absolut vodka over ice and shoped strawberries. Totally heavenly, and i don’t even like drinking usually. It's a good thing we went there friday wasn't as crowded as i suspect it would otherwise have been. yeah, the esplanade's nice at night. And there was a really cool free jazz performance happening
There doesn't happen to be a wishing well anywhere in the Esplanade, so we made a wish (wishes?) and threw coins into the sea. 2 thousand years from now some lucky soul's gonna find two 50 cent coins buried somewhere in the depths of the seabed. And there you have my sort of valentines day that happened, weirdly, on friday the thirteenth
Valentine's day itself was totally nothing…honestly i think it was a better idea to do it the day before anyway..how romantic can you get when you have to spend, like, 45 minutes queueing up for tables and stuff and then sit around with a zillion other pple in a sardine packed restaurant? Friend's experience, that
Have just washed, scrubbed, steamed, masked, and generally tried very hard to do womething to make my skin nice and glowy. time to wash the gunk off now…love you all! happy valentines once again
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