Saturday, March 13, 2004
It was getting better, and then it wasn’t
Have you ever had one of those days when you feeling like everything’s just falling apart and when your whole life’s just insanely wrong and you just feel like slashing across your wrists and drowning in the blood?
That so does not sound like something i would say, But honestly…something’s terribly not right with me these few days. And the worse thing is no fucking person seems to notice or give a damn about anything. Or weirdly, the people that did notice were like, not the people that should have. Like, un-close people were being nice, while persons who are apparently good friends don’t give a fuck. I mean, not that i go around waving a sign screaming DYSFUNCTIONAL!! but i would expect my best friends to realize that something’s not right when i do something totally out of character, like cut her off in the middle of talking on msn and going off. i mean, HELLO.
I couldn’t care less if she reads this since she never bothered emailing/tagging/whatever for like 3 whole months then who is she to say anything.
Its bloody irritating when people go off about their happy, blissful little lives and tell all these stories that go on forever and i just want to scream sometimes. ok, like, yes i have a happy blissful little life too and yes, i have happy, blissful little stories too would you care to LISTEN for once instead of going off all these crazy tangents? theres a limit to how much i can listen to stupid stories about people i don’t know. hello, if i wanted to know your life story i can always just read a blog or something
there i’ve ranted and feel slightly better. people can be so damningly uncaring.
i react lousily to being depressed…guess it doesn’t happen often so i don’t exactly deal with it very well. Yeah, so im not high 100 percent of the time. Are you?
have a week ahead of mugging…i don’t have the energy or willpower to do it. ack. terrible thought. why do the powers that be always manage to negate our holidays by sticking us with exams immediately after?
Rant
Rave
Wont be blogging for some time after this…well, maybe intermittently…VERY intermittently.
Cheerful thought: just got an album of suede singles. Should listen to positivity…i love that song, still do, even if it doesn’t fit my current frame of mind.
And the morning's for you
And the air is free
And the birds sing for you, and your positivity
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