Wednesday, August 25, 2004
What the fuck can i say..I'm just fucking tired. of life, of having to deal with my life, the messiness of it, and the fact that nothing seems to stay together no matter what i do.
I'm tired of being tired, i dont ever recall ever being this sick of
everything ever before. I mean, before this, there would always have been at least one, miniscule teeny thing that kept me floating above all the messiness. but what the fuck, let me swear a bit more, what the FUCK, i'm just tired.
things fall apart...are falling apart...even if i do try to keep myself together. Don't know who to talk to, even if i dod, i wouldn't know what to say. I dont expect anyone to save me from myself, no, even the people..the person, possibly, that i thought might has no way of doing so. and what on earth can i do to stop feeling so
out of control???
Too many expectation, things left unsaid but hovering around all the time, i know they're there, everyone does, threatening to descend anytime. in the fucking long run we're all fucking dead.
Can't decide if its just the prelims/ alevels stuff thats getting me down, or whether its just the whole sad everything. School never bothered me this much until now.
Life seemed manageable and escapable until now.
all i can say is,
somebody save me
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