Thursday, April 15, 2004
did i mention disillusioned? doubly so now. There's this little pessimist in me dying to get out and so...
spent the past two days in school basically holed up in the lab...there's some science competition thingie coming up SOON (like, tomorrow) and so we get excused from lessons to fix everything. And ARRRRGGGHHH talk about tiring. And its basically hopeless..cos somehow all the stuff that we do that's supposed to give us results of some sort, DON"T, and it's basically hopeless repetition..with lots of waiting in between. which is why i have the time to come do this now. Just had to talk to someone, even if that someone's only a SOMETHING. Plus other previous disillusionments, man..my life's a big nightmare at the moment.
So i'm like, semi sick, about a week behind all my school work and man i can't wait for the weekend. I feel terrible..im cancelling all these appointments..LONG AGO MADE APPOINTMENTS..cos of all the crap that's been happening..ok, like it's my own decision to get involved in everything to begin with, but its definitely not mine that everything turned out so wrong. Let's just say things that could have been done correctly, a long time ago, didn't because certain person's of authority didn't/ couldn't be bothered to deal with them until it was too late. I mean, seriously, there's stuff we've been asking for since the start of march, and they only get here like what, a week ago? *wave wave* hello!??
*Lousy decision to come into the com lab but im too exhausted to care. The clash of the disillusionments, oh well. let me be stupid once in a while*
Anyway, to speak of better things...attempted to make a cake with gil for my mommy dearest's birthday yesterday...way cool..its called THAT CHOCOLATE THING...Has a pound each of chocolate, butter and cream and TWO WHOLE SPOONFULS OF FLOUR. thats what i call a cake man. And so, nicely scheduling everything so that i would have like, 3 hrs free to go and make that thng..yadda yadda..and guess what?? after the whole thing's done what do i se but this little footnote that goes CHILL AND COVER FOR 24 HOURS. 24 HOURS!! ONE DAY!!! it's still sitting there chilling now, funnily. so much for getting it to mommy dearest on time..haha
*ok, feel better...was pretty actually. The thing with good memories: they make you feel better*
ok, the vibes in here aren't bad. I feel a whole lot better actually. wheeee! watch my mood swing! up..down...up..down...
Got a freaking anonymus phonecall yesterday...hello? lynnette? how you...miss me not? who am i? guess lah guess lah guess lah...cmon man, gimme a kiss and i'll tell you...LIKE WTH. it might have been amusing and remotely funny if i hadnt been so pissed off already. and disillusioned, yes, my word of the day. I better find a better one soon, don't think i was cute out to be this angsty.
Currently listening to: Incubus, Mornng View. its good! Loud and rocky-ish and i love it..tried playing it in the lab and it drove everyone nuts...what can i say..APPARENTLY some people prefer classical. haha :) oh whee..finally coaxed a smile outta myself, now thats an achievement.
BTW...CT grades confirmed...D.A.C.E for maths econs bio chem respectively. wad the hell, so much for CCC...watch me drop my S papers like flies. Their not exactly of so much concern now. *cross fingers*
*stop here will be back..i have problems concentrating these days*
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